Tonight

Wow this is different. I just downloaded WordPress for Android so I’m actually blogging from my phone. This is probably gonna cause me to blog so much more because now its like texting; my guilty pleasure… but tonight I’m hurting.
I’ve gotten close to someone. We’re friends and always have been. But now its so much more. Aw Hell, I’m so in love. The mere thought of him makes me smile. I love the way he looks at me, touches me, encourages me, pushes me to do well. He’s a true friend, a wonderful man…. but I can’t seem to stop hurting him. I don’t mean to. I don’t want to. But its like our personalities clash everyday and its tearing us apart. And we make it work. We put it back together again, this vicious cycle we call our friendship. We literally love so hard that it hurts but its ok, because its love. I’ll never walk out on him and he’s always there for me. But tonight wearing his ring, I’ll cry myself to sleep.