So I’m just winding down. This is pathetic. I was so busy during “Spring Break” I never really got my break. Now that I’m back at school where I should be concentrating, I’m not. I really don’t like this feeling, it’s different but not in a good way. I want to focus on my school work but I still just want to relax. Like yesterday while in Focused Inquiry. I was listening to Ms. G talk about this Unit 3 assignment and all I could think about failing. Not to mention this is the ONLY class I have an A in… that is also a bit depressing.

I don’t want to only think about failing but my grades have never in my life been so bad. Bad in my opinion anyway. Today was worse. I was too tired to get up at all apparently. I didn’t go to Anthropology at 9:30 nor did I go to my meeting with my adviser at 11:00. I did call my adviser and rescheduled for Thursday at 11:30 but still, I’m feeling like I’m taking no responsibility here. Overall I think I got all my rest out today, enough anyway. I should be good the rest of the week.

I figure if you have to pray just to get through the day, something must be wrong…

So my Anthropology exam was nothing. But I guess anything is a piece of cake when it’s prepared for. I think I did a proficient amount of studying considering much of what was on the study guide wasn’t even on the exam. I got to class about 5 minutes late and chose to sit on the floor so I wouldn’t disturb anyone already testing. It only took me about 25minutes.

While I was testing in Anthro, Eric was testing in Microeconomics. He can’t stand that class and honestly I can’t stand his teacher, whom I’ve never met but his constant complaining about her makes me feel like I have. This is how I feel about surviving in school in all its levels whether one is in college or kindergarten; well maybe 6^th grade. Any subject is simple to learn as long as you have to right instructor teaching you. Of course now here in college there is more that we have to be responsible for but the teachers are the ones that guide us through.  Eric isn’t normally one to study but I am very proud of him because he studied last night and for a while too. He has been struggling in that class and a good exam grade would not only help his overall grade but really boost his confidence. I pray he did well.

After class we both met at Alpine Bagel then walked to Hibbs so I could get another graduation sheet. This is like my 3^rd one, I can’t seem to keep track of them. When I was talking about Microecon to a friend she said that mostly everyone had to take that class. I needed to make sure that I wasn’t a part of that “mostly.” I’m already dreading English200, Calculus, and Statistics when it comes. I don’t need another burden. Once I found out that I don’t have to take the class I was relieved.

What pretty much ended our day out- we went and got lunch and dinner, which neither of us have eaten yet. Then we came back and took a nap because afterall, we had been up all night studying. That was probably the best nap ever. It was so quiet and peaceful for once. It’s never quite on the 2^nd floor of Cabaniss Hall. The window was open and a soft breeze would creep in every once in a while and it felt so good. When I woke up I felt so refreshed. Tomorrow I only have one class then I go home. I feel I ended this week off right.

Happiness. Yesterday I spoke of feeling good and loving life. Today was total happiness.

Life is crazy. I love it though, life. You never know what to expect. Many times we complain and stress over things, giving certain situation more attention than they really deserve. But stopping to notice and enjoy the good things in life, anything good, can make a real difference.

More specifically though, I’m talking about feelings, emotions. Not just with others but just anything that makes you smile, that’s a good feeling. As we all know, I was really stressed about my Pre-Calculus exam that was this morning. I practically spent my entire day yesterday studying. I didn’t even go to bed until after 6AM this morning and I woke up at 8:30 for class. After so much studying and practice I literally prayed that my hard work pays off. Of course I don’t know just how well I did on the exam yet. But after class I felt like a wave of confidence and relief just rushed over my body. I felt like a weight had just lifted from my mind. Not only that, my teacher gave us back our last quiz and I got a 93% which made me even happier considering I failed the three before that.

After math I got my exam back in Focused Inquiry, the one on The Dew Breaker. I already knew that I had panicked and just started writing on the long essay part without organizing anything. What’s strange is that after class Friday I said to myself, “The long essay is worth 40points, she’ll (Ms. Gordon) probably take off 10,” and that’s exactly what happened, I got 90%. So apparently when it comes to writing long, timed essays I really need to work on my organizations skills and form a good introduction. That was my main problem. At least I had a good conclusion.

Right now I’m taking a break from studying for this Chemistry exam I have in about 2 hours. This day thus far has been really good for me. Not to mention the bonus of such nice whether. When everything goes right and I feel good, even if just for a moment, it just makes everything else about life great and all the good really does outweigh the bad.

This Life… My love…  My Life…. It feels good.

Doggone midterms. That’s what I’ve been saying this week, thus far. Dang I hate assessments.

Bright side about today, I only had one class and that teacher was able to help me with the study guide. I was actually considering dropping that class. I have a 65% in there now. That ONE quiz didn’t go so good. Now I’m confident about that exam on Thursday. It’s just Anthropology.

But what I’ve been doing all day is studying for my Pre-Calculus exam tomorrow morning. I haven’t even thought about my Chemistry exam that is also tomorrow… until now. Great. Math has always worried me, since the 4^th grade. I just can’t seem to get it as fast as everyone else. I am doing better though but still, I’m concerned.

I think I’m officially stressed out. I need to relax.

I mean where is it going!? Didn’t we JUST get back from Winter Break? I don’t know about you but this is just how I feel. Black History Month is pretty much gone and I feel like I’m about to be 19 like TOMORROW… and if you’re curious my birthday is actually March 24^th …

But on to more recent and up-coming events, is everyone ready for those good ole midterms? Really I figure it doesn’t matter how “ready” we are, we never actually WANT to take a midterm or any exam (honestly). I guess our “midterm” for Focused Inquiry is this essay based exam on The Dew Breaker, which I have to take tomorrow. I’m not really worried about that. I’m pretty confident and feel as though I understood the book and its entirety. Plus I actually read it haha. I’m more nervous about this Pre-Calculus and Anthropology exam I have next week. You can guess what I’ll be doing this weekend.

Now on better and brighter things. Does everyone know what they are doing for Spring Break? I just made my plans and trust me they are not all that great. I text messaged my manager at McDonalds back at home (Yes, I text my manager. She is SO COOL!!!) and I asked her to put me on the schedule for March 10^th, 11^th, and 12^th. That Thursday, March 13^th, I plan on getting my hair done and a pedicure… maybe even a manicure. So really, my actual BREAK is only about 5 days. Can’t wait…

It has been a wonderful and overall, very relaxing day. I actually got up and went to Anthropology. I was about 5 minutes late but it wasn’t that bad. I pre-downloaded the notes last night and went over stuff from Tuesday (that I missed) and today’s notes. About 15 minutes into the class my teacher put a movie on. I had to sit through an hour of fossil diggers digging up bones in Africa. They believed that they were the remains of creatures 3 million years ago that were part human, part ape. I’m not sure weather I believe this though. I’m more of a “God made Adam and Eve and there ya go” kind of believer. I pretty much refuse to believe that we humans descended from monkeys. But the movie was almost interesting though. The fossil diggers are quite diligent in what they do and they take it very seriously.

After Anthro I came back to the dorm and went to sleep. When I woke up I printed that too long essay that I have to read for Focused Inquiry. I’ll do that sometime tonight. Now I’m about to go to the gym, I’ll be back to write tomorrow though.

So it’s the weekend. Most people get excited about the weekend. I’m excited that I don’t have to leave my dorm and go to any classes, nor do I have to get out of my pyjamas. But as much work as I’ve been doing it doesn’t feel very weekend-ish. I’ve been doing Pre-Calculus for about 2 hours now, still not done though. I’m taking a break.

I wonder what I’ll be doing tomorrow. Probably writing the rest of my personal essay. That shouldn’t take as long as this math homework though…

In other words… this day is pretty much dull. I did not want to get out of bed this morning. I was struggling. Maybe I should have went to bed last night. I don’t know what happened. Before I took my shower I was so tired. My body was ready for sleep. But when I got out the shower I was suddenly wide awake. So I decided to read some anthropology stuff and take some notes. That’s the only class I had today. When I got tired of doing that I played Super Mario on my boyfriend’s Nintendo DS for a while. Eventually, I don’t know when, but eventually I went to sleep.

I almost didn’t make it through Anthropology this morning. I got there like 15 minutes early but those chairs in that room are so comfortable and Dr. Steenhuysee’s voice is so relaxing (with his French-like accent) I didn’t think I was going to make it the entire hour and 15minutes of lecture. Luckily class didn’t last that long. Actually he gave us our first pop quiz, another way of taking role in such a large class. But of course, the pop quiz would be on Cultural Relativism and it’s importance to anthropologists, something that he must have taught the day I missed class. I came to this conclusion when I couldn’t find those words anywhere in my notebook. But God always makes a way. Ironically, just last night I bought an Anthropology text book from my new friend Kimi for just $40.00 (it cost nearly $90.00 at the bookstore). And we were aloud to use any information we had including notes and textbooks. So I’m pretty sure I conquered my first “anthropological pop quiz.” If not, at least I was counted present.

I don’t have anymore classes today.

((about 5hours later))

 Ok, I didn’t get to publish this earlier. I was in the library writing then Eric showed up. We went to Shafer… but didn’t eat anything. Awkward. This day is still a “boo-like” day. I just woke up from nearly a 3hour nap…

my definition of a “boo-like” day: a day lacking life, emotion, or any feeling at all. just another day…

So today was my first day back at VCU after a winter break that was WAY too long. I’m happy to be back for several reason. One of those reasons is that I really got tired of being in the same house as my parents after the first couple weeks. I got tired of doing chores and cleaning up after everyone. Secondly I really missed my friends from school. I didn’t miss the classes so much but going to class is a lot more entertaining than sitting in a house all day for days at a time. So I can honestly say that I was happy to be back in class today.

First I had Pre-Calculus 9:00 – 10:45. That class already intimidates me. Math isn’t my best subject and Ms. Ginn, my math instructor, even said that there is so much material to go over in that class that we will not be able to cover it all in class. In other words, we have to do it ourselves out of class. That made me somewhat sad. But the great news is that all my materials that would have cost me nearly $200 for that math class was provided by my LaJeanne. She took Math151 last semester and she gave me her books for free. I love her for that.

My second and third classes were simple. Focus Inquiry part II and Introductory Chemistry overall interest me way more than any math does. It was great being back in my extremely small FI class with people I knew and a teacher that I am already familiar with. My Chemistry class has over 100 people in it but already I feel as though I’ll do fine in that class. I love science, Biology more than Chemistry, but still I am actually looking forward to a full semester in this class.

I’ve pretty much already been to all of my classes for this semester except one. Tomorrow I go to Anthropology for the first time. I wonder what that will be like…

I am officially in love with my Tuesdays and Thursdays at VCU. I only have one class on these days and it’s at 9:30 in the morning. This is great because after 10:45 I’m free to do whatever for the rest of the day. That means I can sleep, study, sleep, read, sleep, go out to eat (a few times), and… did I mention sleep? haha… But anyway, my only class on these days is Introductory Anthropology. Today was my first day in that class so basically I just got a feel of my instructor. He has an accent that only makes me want to listen harder to what he has to say. His accent reminds me of Steve Martin’s character in The Pink Panther. Steve plays the really goofie French detective Jacques Clouseau whose English is contorted by his French accent. So I guess based off my observation, I think my Anthropology instructor may be French. Overall, after Dr. Alex Steenhuyse’s brief overview of the course I personally feel pretty good about it. It’s only Tuesday morning, 10:16AM, and I’ve already been to all of my classes for this second semester. Life is looking great… so far…